Monday was the first time that I cried over this waiting process.We’ve been waiting 16 months and rumors say we have at least another 7 months to go.
When we started this process, we were told to expect about a 12 month wait. Obviously, things have slowed down.
During my lament, I felt His whisper on my heart:
Are you ready for any child?
Yes, I’m ready…but I think the house could be cleaner. (Blast the Martha-in-me.)
Are you ready for a son?
I surrender to whatever child – whenever you see fit.
And then complete peace fell on me.
Later that day, I asked Hubs if he was open to adopting a boy or a girl and he said he was always open to either child, but it was me who had always thought we would adopt a girl.
So, last night, I wrote our agency and asked if it would be possible since we are in the process of updating our home study to add that we are open to adopting a boy or a girl.
Whatever child needs a home.
Whenever they are ready.
This morning, our agency sent an e-mail saying it was quite easy to add that we are open to a boy or girl.
Well, maybe blue…
Cool! I can’t wait to see what will happen!
As I open my email this morning, and clean out the junk and go over a few “to-do’s”…. I see my favorite “On the Eastern Journey.” I immediately wonder, “what is schafer up to today?” When I read your journal…. Tears come to my eyes. What a way to start my day~~~~ Blue, Blue…. lovely blue. Schafer may have a brother one day. I’m so happy for all of you. Hopefully the wait won’t be much longer. boy or girl = loving home.
Thank you so much for your comment. You expressed my feelings so well with “boy or girl = loving home”. I just want to be open and surrendered to my thoughts.
Oh, Sandra, thank you so much for sharing this with us. I am pr that your baby will arrive quickly! Do you know if your baby will have some sort of deformity? There is a precious, sweet little girl at the orphanage that I would take home with me right now if I could…she is perfect except for a missing hand. Not to make light of that, but truly, otherwise she is perfect! She has the sweetest dimples when she smiles. She is Christin’s age. Each time I go there I pr that your child is among those whom I’m holding and whispering prs over.
So glad to hear about the peace in your heart…He is in control, and His plan is not only good, it is the best!
Pr for you today,
Rachel
Children with special needs are only matched with families who request a special needs child. Since we do not live in America and have access to a variety of specialized doctors, physical therapist, speech therapist, etc. we didn’t feel called to adopt a special needs child. We have requested a healthy child. We realize that anything can happen so we submit to the true matchmaker. But you know, anything can happen in pregnancy too.
Thank you so much for sharing this post. My hearts cries out for you and Shorel. Tears filled my eyes as I read your post because I know this waiting well…whether it was waiting to see if we were pregnant (with no success) or waiting through the adoption process (all the ups and downs). It is really tough. I pray that God will bring the perfect child for your family very soon. I’m thankful for your willingness to go through this process and love a baby who needs a forever family!!
Oh, this is such a hard thing to surrender, isn’t it? Our dream of what that child will be? I remember we always assumed we would adopt a healthy child.
I well recall the day the social worker called to see if we would take a child with physical disabilities. It was hard to surrender that, but it was worth it! We could have never dreamed just how disabled our child would actually be, but he is our pride and joy and we love him with all our hearts. Our life would be so empty without him.
You wait and see — the plans he has for us really are the best!
Alesha
How very exciting to know He is stirring in your hearts and preparing you for great things ahead. Pink or blue, His way is perfect. I can’t wait to see what’s in store. Thinking of you…
Dearest Sandra,
Your dad and I waited from 1969 to 1973 for Glo, it was tough. Papaw accused me of taking the pill (not!) and worried that I would “fall fallow” like his sister, cousins, and aunt. However, we were “fertile turtles” 20 months after Glo to be with you. I know this is not the same as the paper chase. He will help find a perfect match, and he will add to your family in the other way. ( Just a hunch…maybe the adopted child will be a boy and ya’ll’s next child will be a girl…a little female Schafer!) The cameras will really be popping then!! iluvumom