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on this last night of November

I wish November had 31 days.

I feel like I could use just one more day before December 1st.

I’ve been so tired this afternoon that I forgot tonight was Friday night. I accidentally made chicken with carrots and peas. The kids were obviously upset that it was Friday night and there was no pizza. Hubs said he told me it was Friday, but I didn’t hear him.

Earlier in the day we were having a conversation about money and I asked him calculate the sums a certain way. A few hours later I realized the number he told me did not make any sense. Hubs said he knew all along that it was wrong mathematically, but he did what I asked. I guess he learned long ago not to argue with a pregnant woman.

Tomorrow we will start our Jessee Tree readings in the morning. Then, before bed we will start a new tradition of opening a Christmas book (some new, some old, some new-to-us) for our bedtime reading. Depending on the night, some will have activities others we will just read and enjoy.

There’s so much to look forward to, but I find myself wanting to linger in November.

My Grandmaw died this month. I haven’t found the words to write and the tears still come so suddenly that I am caught off guard. Her recipes flood my cookbook so I have reminders of her everyday. It was so strange to call home on Thanksgiving and not speak with her. At Christmas, I will make her chicken and dressing with giblet gravy that I have consumed once a year for 35 years.

With Decembers arrival I am reminded that time does not slow down. Selah will turn 2 on Christmas Eve. Schäfer will turn 6 the following week.

Two.

Six.

I’m trying to soak it in.. the way all the kids dance to the Charlie Brown Christmas CD… how they sit and “read” books… the way they look and smell and smile… and soon we will be joined by a 4th which is overwhelming and very good.

I say that I’m trying to soak it in, but sometimes I am caught up in the laundry and the dishes and the next meal that I flurry about the house.

On this last night of November, I find myself coming into the Christmas season with a desire to Be Still even though our calendar is increasingly full.

 

 

11 comments to on this last night of November

  • Jennie

    Oh, Sandra. I didn’t know about your Grandmaw. I am so very sorry.

  • Amy Graham

    When I began reading and read this sentence and paragraph: “Hubs said he told me it was Friday, but I didn’t hear him.

    Earlier in the day we were having a conversation about money and I asked him calculate the sums a certain way. A few hours later I realized the number he told me did not make any sense. Hubs said he knew all along that it was wrong mathematically, but he did what I asked. I guess he learned long ago not to argue with a pregnant woman.”

    I laughed so hard. I love you both so much that this just makes me smile. Then I read about your grandmother’s passing and I know the pain of losing someone close to the holidays and how hard it can be. I’m sorry for your loss and I’m sorry that you’re unable to be in Arkansas with family to process with them.

    I too wish Nov. had 31 days….I’m just not ready for it to be December yet. I too have been reflecting on “Be Still” trying to figure out how to implement this!

    Love you and your growing family! 🙂

  • jdavis2

    yes BE STILL. it’s a good season to do so. to fight against the demands, busyness and our own inner expectations.
    and it’s a good time to reflect. to enjoy your precious (& growing) family… and a chance to remember your Grandmaw. maybe even dedicate a moment or a day as a memorial.
    praying with you for healing, for a joy-filled heart (in the midst of sadness) and moments of quiet and STILLness.
    BE STILL dear friend (even if that means going to bed when the kids do) and know you are loved.
    ~jd2

  • Shellie

    {HUGS} Lots and lots of hugs to you, sweet friend….

  • Erin

    So many thoughts, but words are lacking, friend. So excited about #4! So grieved to know you are mourning such a difficult loss from so far away. Nodding in a resounding agreement that I could use an extra day in November, and scrambling (like you!) to find moments to just. be. still. from across the globe. You are loved, STK. Lifting you up consistently as I see a little heart of jade hanging from my car’s rearview mirror, and as I see your lovely faces posted in our kitchen. Lots of love coming your way from a little apartment in CA!

  • No words. But you remain my favorite blogger. Your sense of humor and your HEART shine. Twenty years ago when I was in a flurry, my dad told me those were the best days of my life. I think, at the ripe old age of 30, I may have rolled my eyes as I was knee deep in diapers, snot, and keeping up. He was right. Today,(an untold # of children later) I can still say these are the BEST days of my life. I hope that the “Be still” will find you this Advent season as you love and cherish your family. Much love, J

  • Eden

    So sorry to hear about your loss. I know how difficult it is to grieve from far away, and then to grieve anew when you return home. You are in our thoughts. May you have a blessed Christmas season. Love you!

  • Jess

    Hey Sandra, Just came across an old book review where you mentioned that Amazon doesn’t stock Marilyn Howshall’s mini-book, “Walk By the Spirit in Your Homeschool Decisions”– FYI I just came across this place where you can download it as an e-book if you want to do that:

    http://www.lifestyleoflearning.org/BookPages/9_walkByTheSpirit.php

    Just thought I’d pass it along.
    Jess

  • Mom

    So sorry about your Grandmother, Sandra! Thinking about all of you today! Lots of hugs and love to my Grand- children and to you two! My heart is with you! Love You All! Snowing here!

  • moi

    Be Still. Know that I am. The month of November was nothing more than a blur of activity. How refreshing and sometimes foreign those words are. How absolutely riveting they can become in the smallest of moments. And yet, I think about all the commotion of living. All of the reading and talking over one another, and somehow all of that brings life too. It makes the living even sweeter… especially after the pause has passed. Love you S.

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